Let go~

How sad of the title....

yup....itś another heart broken post which i will let go something that is important to me in someday...

A sentence I used to tell my friends : TAKE IT or LEAVE IT!!!

Should I disappear in silent?

It is really hard to describe my feelings now. Sad, disappointment, angry....

Sad because of feel like being betrayed and being dumped!!
Disappointment because of someone promises but cannot make it the end of the day.
Angry because of I'm just a small potato in someone's heart.

I'm so weak now...my head is gonna explode because of non stop crying...even though, no one will care about that. Who cares?

Am I disgusting?

Did I plan too much to have a happy day but ended up with the most sad ending?

Helpless

Today, i found out no one will help on you when you need any helps from anyone even though your beloved or so called friend.

Friend, no one will appreciate your effort, what is the meaning to be nice & kind towards friend. They look for you not because of they treat you as friend but they just want to spend their time instead of bored at home. That's called "friend".

Beloved, haha....ridiculous, when the time he goes after you, haha...for sure he will do whatever you request he / she to do. Even follow you to other states, he / she willing to do that without you pleased them. What to do after few years time? He will ask you to call others to fetch you or when you suggested to take taxi, he will just give you a response becareful if you really wanna take taxi home. That's the big difference between before and after.

I wonder what's the main point to have friend / lover? Have friend , to be utilize by them? Have lover, NO COMMENT!!

PARENT IS ALWAYS THE BEST!!!

Sigh

Past few days, I was happy and lived peacefully, didn't argue with my bf. Even though yesterday was a scary day. My bf was calling me and told me that he is on his way going back home from Subang, but after 2 hours, I still didn't get his call neither his phone cannot get through. I was damn panic at that time, tried to call his mom and his mom told me he still yet back. Oh My Godness, it really scares me. My mind keep on thinking those negative bad things. Luckily end up he called me and told me his phone ran out of battery, unfortunately of the emergency tyre puncture. What a bad day?! Thanks to god at least he is safe.


Today, I was too free and updated my status in Facebook, who knows someone was commented who is the poor guy. I don't expect my bf to put any comments, but what he put there really make me pissed off. He commented "who". Opps..... is it that poor to be my bf or admit he is my bf.

At last, I've removed it and forever I won't put anything about that. I did that because I wanted to make an announcement to the world about he is my Mr. Right but in fact he seems doesn't want anyone know about it!!

@@ BIG SIGH @@

真爱?

原来当一个人对一段感情觉得累了，就算对着曾经深爱的人，都会冷谈对待。今天我领悟到了！！

轰烈爱情的尽头，是幸福的还是伤感的。如果曾经深爱过，分手后，真的可以一笑而过吗？！

爱情，有甜蜜，有苦涩，有欢笑，有悲伤。如果，两个相爱的人在一起，只能共欢乐甜蜜，不能共悲伤苦涩，那算是真爱吗？！

何处才能寻找真爱呢？真爱的结果又是什么呢？

幸福真的是靠自己争取吗？还是上天已经注定了呢？！

孤独的人

其实我今天真的很不开心。他跟我说想我像以前那样，像个小孩子，让他宠爱。事实上，已经不可能了。尤其是当他很忙或很累的时候，我不可以任性，不可以闹别扭，因为会令他很烦。不要说他，连我自己都觉得自己很烦，很令人讨厌。我讨厌现在的自己，孤独且不受欢迎。

今早起来，心情真的很差，满脑子空空的，甚至可以忘了他答应我会留在我家多过一夜。当他打电话给我时，提醒了我。我很开心，因为他记得，也很担心我们见到面又吵架。我真的很害怕吵架的感觉。工作时，头脑还很不清醒，还在发呆。唯有逼自己忙，不去想太多。一个人吃饭真的很悲哀啊，到现在才发觉到自己真的很没有人缘。知心朋友也没几个。或许我当他人是知己，他人当我是朋友而已。

晚上，约了朋友出去吃晚餐。她很贴心的带了她妈妈褒的汤给我喝。说让我补一补。说我的身体不好要照顾，超感动。他打了通电话给我，说他的侄儿有事情不能到我家了。虽然我没有怪他，因为如果是我的侄儿我也会去，只是我却很失落。有时候，真的觉得，人心跟想法有一定的矛盾。尤其是女人。想得很理智，但心里却又莫名其妙的失落。

跟他聊电话，其实有很多东西想告诉他，可是他应该累坏了，没有机会说！哈，对着空气说吧，笨蛋！

前一晚，我劝朋友说，爱一个人是不应该计较结果，只要两个人享受过程过得开心就已经足够了。爱，不计较付出或输赢。可是，在现在的社会与道德，有多少个人真的不计较呢！？！？

唉！我很讨厌一个人上班的感觉。。。无法用言语可以解释。。。

最心痛 - 冷漠的拥抱

为了小事我们吵了起来。我试着放下尊严， 为了不想伤害两个人之间的感情，我给了身边的他一个拥抱。维持了数秒钟的拥抱，他第一次没有给我任何的拥抱。只是冷冷的躺在一旁。我的心碎了。。。